Friday, March 24, 2017

Looking Up!



It's been a while since my last post about seeking help for my anxiety problems, I'm happy to say that I feel so much better.

The great thing for me personally about Lexipro, is that it doesn't really change who I am as a person. It doesn't dope me up like Xanax has the potential to. Instead, it just makes me feel less general stress and anxiety.

For me, that's exactly what I needed, and has made a world of difference in my every day attitude.

I had SO MANY people on Instagram share their stories and support regarding this issue, and I wanted to thank you all.

My main goal in life is to be a great mom and wife for my family, and to not drive myself crazy in the process, so if a tiny pill will help me to do that, I'm grateful.





Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Tripping It Up

I'm taking my mom to Colorado next month for her birthday. It'll just be a little long weekend girl's trip, and I'm so excited!

We have some family who live close to Denver, so we're planning on seeing them while we're there. We also have way too many activites planned, so here's hoping we can fit it all in.

I've never been to CO, but my mom has and says it's beautiful with mountains everywhere, so I'm thinking this will be cool.

We do plan on also hitting up some museums while we're there, and I definitely plan on seeing the Rocky Mountains.

As tradition dictates, I'll be getting a tattoo while in Denver, and have no clue where to actually go. I'll figure it out once I get there. I have a few little tattoo ideas, so I'll go with what feels right at the time.

We even rented an Airbnb from a younger couple who seem very down to Earth and kind - should be an interesting experience!


Friday, January 27, 2017

Seeking Help


After lunch and the 🍭 shop yesterday, I had an appointment with my doctor regarding my anxiety issues. I've had what could me considered mild, and at times severe, anxiety issues since I was pretty much a child. At 17ish, I got into a car wreck and had PTSD as a result. 

It went untreated for approximately a year or so before I sought help. Mostly because my mom and I thought it would "just pass" given enough time. It didn't. That anxiety and PTSD eventually got so bad that when I was 18, pretty I decided I needed help to cope with my anxiety issues. I was put on a couple of medications. 

The first didn't work and made me feel sick, but the second definitely helped for a while. I eventually stopped taking it and thought that everything was fine. Until I got my first real job working full time. I worked there for 10 months before I let all of stress and anxiety build up to the point of no return. I didn't have insurance and could not afford doctor visits and meds out of pocket. 

Things seemed to settle down for many years and I was able to cope well with little to no anxiety problems. Until Dottie was born. I was in survival mode for so long due to her medical issues, that the stress eventually caused me to have what I consider a complete anxiety relapse. So in 2015 I started taking Lexipro for my anxiety issues and it worked like a charm. I stopped late 2016. 

I assumed all was fine and because things were settling down health wise for Dot, I wouldn't need help coping mental health wise. I was wrong. I constantly feel like something bad is going to happen. Like that tense, almost nauseous feeling in your stomach. It makes me irritable because I constantly feel stressed out and overwhelmed. It makes me grumpy and short tempered. 

Basically, not much fun to be around at times (sometimes a lot of time), and I don't want to be that way. I want to be a happy and fun mom and wife and daughter. Like I am when not already starting the day at stress/anxiety level 5.

 All of this to say: If you need mental health help, don't be ashamed about it. Seek out the people or meds that will help you function normally in your life. You're not alone. #endthestigma

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Thomas Carnival

We live in Round Rock, Texas, near a large baseball stadium called the Dell Diamond. There's a super huge park that backs up against it called Old Settlers Park, and every year they do a spectacular light show. You pay for your car/vehicle and drive through the park where various light displays are set up. 

At then end they have Christmas Town, which mostly consists of even more lights you can view on foot, games to play, and photo ops. 


There also happens to be a carnival that comes to town every year and sets up as part of this experience, or you can hit it up separate, called The Mighty Thomas Carnival
It's very small, but all of the good stuff is there, and they even have a Ferris Wheel. 

Darren and I took the kids and Nana even tagged along!




Johnny loved all of the walk through houses like the hall of mirrors and this one called U-Toob. 

I've always been a fan of carnivals and love their artwork. 



Everyone had a great time. We ate hot dogs, funnel cake, and drank giant sodas from super cute and mega cheesy cups. 

I saved mine for drinking water out at home ;) 

We played a few games and Johnny had his fill of fun houses and cotton candy. 

 I would recommend the Thomas Carnival for smaller kids under the age of 10, however we all had a fantastic time and we can't wait to go back next year. 









All opinions and photos are my own and this post is in no way paid for or endorsed by The Mighty Thomas Carnival. 




Thursday, November 10, 2016

October Highlights

I thought I'd post a few personal highlights from October. Just for fun!

Dottie had surgery to close her g-tube site. All went well and she's healed up amazingly with no complications.

The kids started to get into the Halloween spirit.

Dottie laughed out loud when the first person was "killed" during the Lone Star Saber Academy demonstration at the Round Rock Library. 

My best friend made me a super yummy 33rd birthday cake from scratch - she's a good cook like that!

Darren and I got our early vote on. 

We took the kids to a pumpkin patch and were able to get really only one decent picture of all of us. 

We ended up having a pretty fantastic Halloween! 


What were some of your favorite parts of October this year?


Monday, November 7, 2016

Get Your Vote On

No matter who you're voting for, be sure and get out and VOTE on Tuesday, November 8th.

It only takes a few minutes with a little planning, and it's so very important.


Darren, Dottie and I voted after we dropped Bubba off at school and were in and out in less than 5 minutes. 



Friday, November 4, 2016

Boo! Happy Halloween 2016



My favorite thing about Halloween isn't necessarily the candy, although let's be honest, that is one of my favorite things about the holiday.

My personal favorite thing is the costumes. I love seeing all of the little kids (and big adults) go wild with their imagination for one night and be able to be anything they can think up!

This year I let Darren pick Dottie's costume. He opted for her being Pikachu and he was a Team Mystic Pokemon Trainer.


I went with my traditional Black Cat costume, and had so much fun with the bold makeup - can't help but admire how it brings out the green in my eyes. 


Johnny opted to be a Leonardo from TMNT, complete with super ninja moves and all. 


We also took the kids to the pumpkin patch at St. Richard's Episcopal Church down the street. Every year they host a huge pumpkin patch to raise funds for their church and the community, so it's been tradition for us to go ever since Johnny's first Halloween at 6 months old. 

Nana and I were able to squeeze in taking Dottie to the Fall Fun Fest in Old Settlers Park Halloween morning while Bubba was in school. 


I think this had to be one of my favorite Halloweens so far. Between so many activities around town for the kids and them actually being old enough to really enjoy Halloween, I couldn't have asked for a better start to fall! 

What are your favorite things to do during this time of year?